August 6, 2018

Meditating at 55 Miles Per Hour

When I first started out on my path to discover the practice of meditation, I had this grand vision of sitting in solitude on a nice comfy cushion; legs crossed, my hands resting on my knees, and me chanting Om over and over as I breath in my nose and out my mouth. However I just could not do this, I could not just sit there and breath and wait for some grand vision to come to me; my mind just does not like to sit and be quite and so I began my journey to find a way to meditate that would work for me.

I found my perfect meditation on the back of my husbands motorcycle at 55 miles per hour, and it's was wonderful. No really that's my zone out, ground myself, and listen to the universe spot. I have also learned to do the whole crossed leg thing too, but instead of quieting my mind I listen to what it is telling me, I take note of what messages I'm getting and what they mean to me and how to go forward with them. I'm still not an expert but I now know what works for me.

I want to share a few basics of meditation with you and what meditation can do for you.

 What is Meditation?

Meditation can be defined as a practice where an individual uses a technique, such as focusing their mind on a particular object, thought or activity, to achieve a mentally clear and emotionally calm state. - Webster's Dictionary 

Meditation to me is time I set aside to calm my mind and listen to the universe and my guides, it's a time to ground and center myself before starting the days task. 

What are the Benefits of Meditation? 

  • Reduces Stress 
  • Relaxes the Mind & Body 
  • Lowers Blood Pressure 
  • Helps with Anxiety 
  • Gives an overall feeling of well being. 
  • Helps you gain better focus 

Where to Start 

Start by doing the basic meditation we have all heard about, find a quite place(this can be inside or outside), and just sit and listen to what ever come into your mind, do this for 5 - 10 min(set a timer if you need to) always remember to breath in your nose and out your mouth.

Take note of what messages come to you and how you feel after you meditate; do you feel relaxed, less anxious, etc. If the basic technique does not work for you, do some research and find what type of meditation works for you.

 Do you Meditate? What works for you?

February 2, 2018


Caution!!! Possible Triggering May Occur 

On Thursday the 25th I lost my stepdad and ever since then I have been on a roller coaster of emotions, it has more loops than I have ever seen.

Lets go back, my Mom married my stepdad when I was 5 years old, and up until I was 15 I had the most amazing dad in then world, and then in one night my whole world changed; that was the first night he ever climbed in my bed, this and worse behavior continued until I was 18 ad moved out of my parents home, it continued even when the adults in my life knew what was going on and did nothing.

My Mom stayed married to this man until she passed away a year and a half ago, and I was conditioned to play happy family. I may have been conditioned but I wasn't stupid; I never let my daughters stay the night over there or sped time alone with him, I also made sure that my husband knew what was what.

Four years ago, my step dad was diagnosed with cancer, and because of this lost his leg, I felt bad for him because no one should ever go through that, but a voice inside me said it's his Karma paying him back.

Now flash forward to the past week ad why I am feeling so conflicted about my emotions, to me the man I called daddy died when I was 15 and I truly morn that man, but now I'm having to listen to his family talk about what a great person he was, how much he loved and took care of his family, how they know he's in heaven; and I want to scream at the top of my lungs "this was not a good man, this was an evil man, he took away my innocence and my trust" but I don't I just keep quite and let them keep piling on all the work for making his arrangements; it's like I'm frozen in fear all over again.

writing is one of the things I;m supposed to do to help me work through this, so I may be writing more post about my issues, just a heads up for those who might get triggered.

Thanks for listening



October 20, 2017

Down but not out...

For months my body and I have been at war, we have been going back and forth; I have won several battles and now I am on the verge of winning another one. Let me explain.

For those who don't follow me on FB I have been having issues with my right arm for about 7 months, the first issue the doctors found was an uncommon issue called Radial Tunnel Syndrome, I had surgery on that back in August and Things were going good, I was healing really good and my arm was working like it should...

<<< My arm all wrapped up
Right after surgery.

My arm after the bandage came off >>>

Nope I was wrong my arm working right only lasted about 2 1/2 weeks, and this time the pain was more in my upper arm/Shoulder; I was like "What The Hell" I had just gotten my arm back. So I go back to the doctor and he checks me out and says I may have a rotator cuff injury ad sent me for an MRI. The MRI was an ordeal all on it's own, my claustrophobia got the best of me and we had to reschedule for the following week and I had to take happy pills to get through it.

Well yesterday I got my results back and I am happy to report that there is nothing wrong with my rotator cuff and my tendons all look good, and I'm happy to report that we now now what's wrong with my shoulder; they found 2 different areas in the shoulder that has developed arthritis, I am not happy about this but I am relieved to know what's going on with my arm/shoulder.

I meet with my doctor next week to discuss my options and see what my next steps are. I hope to be back to regular posting very, very soon, I miss my blogging friends.

Many Blessing to you all


March 23, 2017

This is my life...

and you CAN'T have it!!!

So my house guest are still with us and I'm going crazy, between the lies and other annoyances. It's not bad enough that we are going broke trying to keep food in the house, but the constant ease dropping, fighting, lieing, and the trying to take over my life has me wanting to scream.

I am writing this post because I really have no other way to vent freely, this is the only place in my life that has not been invaded. So if I start getting to ranty on this subject let me know and I'll scream a little less loudly.

Thanks for listening


February 27, 2017

Lies + Deception = Mistrust Forever

A while back while hanging out with my ladies group we were discussing pet peeves and when it was my turn to discuss my pet peeve I went off all about Lies & Liers.

Let's get this straight, lies no matter how big or small hurt; they can hurt the person that the lie was told to, they can hurt whomever they lie was told about, and if you lie to me trust me it will hurt you.

I guess as you can tell I am dealing with a situation in my life where I am being lied to, or more to the point; the person who is trying to deceive me thinks I am a complete idiot and that just pisses me off, so to that end I needed to rant and get it out of my system.

Thanks for listening hopefully my next post will be less ranty


January 19, 2017

A Square Peg, Stuck in a Round Room

I feel like I am walking around in a round room, and can't find the way out. I was all set to kick 2017 off with a bang and get back to doing all the things that make me happy; but now all of that is on hold somewhat.

My aunt and cousin have had to move back down here from California, due to my cousin rejecting or should I say her body rejecting a kidney transplant. It's a really long story but to sum it up I now have 7 people, 1 dog and a cat living on my house and no quite or free time.

I'm not going to let this get me down though, I'm going to try and continue getting back to my Pagan basics and walk my crooked path. I will be continuing my Crystal Biz just on a smaller scale for the foreseeable future and I will definitely be sharing the entire crazy ride on here.

Thanks for all your support


December 21, 2016

Looking Forward, by Looking Back

Let's face is 2016 sucked and I don't me just for me personally but pretty much everyone, and I don't know about you but I am ready for it to be over.

Before I talk about what I hope for in the year to come I would like to remember a few people who have passed on, these people all influenced my life in one way or another.

I would like to start with Harper Lee, who taught me to be color blind and Elie Weisel, who taught me to be strong in the face of ultimate hardship and that no matter what you go through you have to keep living and loving.

There were also a few Musicians and Actors that passed this year that I will always miss. David Bowie, taught me that it's ok to be me even if I'm a freak. Alan Rickman, taught me that you can say a thousand words with your eyes. Arnold Palmer and John Glenn, taught me that age was just a number.

Lastly my Mom, Leesa, taught me that mommies are human and make mistakes, but that's ok they still love their kids and would do anything for them.

I hope 2017 is better that 2016. I hope all of you have a wonderful and Blessed New Year.